date: Saturday, January 12, 2008
title: tough day.
i am depressed because of two things. 1.) i've finished watching the third season of grey's anatomy and i'm dying to buy the fourth one but i couldn't because i have my exams on monday and i'd only get distracted and 2.) i haven't started reviewing because i'm too busy hating myself for being so stubborn, so lazy, so irresponsible and so grrrrrrr!!!
i am trying to be a better person this year. that is my only resolution and i know it's a hard one but i would want to at least CHANGE, even for just a little bit. i guess i'm not trying hard enough because if i was, i wouldn't be sitting in front of this dumb computer, typing about my frustrations. i want to change. i need to change. because change would be good for me. i am ambitious and i dream about many stuff but i don't want to just dream forever. i want something to HAPPEN and i know for sure that i won't be able to do that when i'm like this.
i won't promise because promise is a huge word. what i can do is to begin to act. like, right now, i am going to end this here and go eat dinner and study. i'm really hoping that i'd become the person i expect myself to be.
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