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date: Monday, July 28, 2008
title: rebel.
what's the most effective cure for LAZINESS? seriously? ang tamad ko! lalo na sa school. what the hell is happening to me?! i have a fin104 quiz tomorrow and a law recitation covering one whole chapter. the most frustrating thing is that i DON'T CARE. it's weird. at times like this, i used to panic and stress so much about it. but now, it's totally different. it's like i've grown tired of school and studying. this is not me. i've never been this lazy before. where is this coming from? i've talked myself into persevering because there's only less than a year left before graduation. but i really really lost self-discipline.
it's sad because i'm giving myself and other people another reason to become disappointed. also, i'm completely aware of this problem and yet i'm not putting extra effort into dealing with it. sucks. bahala na. whatever is the outcome, i'll accept it. i guess i just have to learn the hard way.
--------------- P.S. Did you know that the name MARY means rebellion and/or bitter in Hebrew and in English? That KAREN in Scandinavian, Greek, Latin, Swedish, French and Danish means pure? And that GAYLE means 'gives joy' in Hebrew?
maybe it's just sheer coincidence. but does our name define who we are or is it us who gives definition to it? go figure.
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