date: Thursday, September 4, 2008
title: ..and i also want flowers and a birthday candle to blow. =)
oh, man. i can't believe i'm turning 19 in FOUR days! it'd be my last year as a teenager. right after that i'm going to be 20, an adult. then after that, the next thing i know, i'm 60-- wrinkled, grumpy, teethless and OLD! gosh, i could still remember the time when i was 4 or 5. i used to play with my brother's robot, the one with a small screen on its chest. man, i loved that toy. also, when i celebrated my 7th birthday, i cried because mommy, my lola, insisted on putting eyeliner on me. i saw myself in the mirror and thought i looked horrible! well, some things haven't changed, i still look hideous wearing eyeliner. 12 years?? had it been that long?
A LOOOOT has changed actually. i never stopped growing. literally. haha. no, seriously. when i look back at the things i did before, the way i talked, the way i looked at things, the stuff i liked and not liked, i realized that i'm a completely different person now. i don't know if it's a good change or a bad one. although, you might be wondering why i still write/blog like a shallow, happy-go-lucky 14-year-old girl. i know, i sometimes ask myself that same question, too. but i guess that the reason is despite what i've gone through ,which made me feel more experienced, stronger and more like an adult, there's always a part of me that'll remain a child forever and ever and ever. i like being a kid. i loved my childhood and i'm afraid that when i grow older, i'll forget how to be one. there's just something about being a kid that's so wonderful. there is always innocence, vulnerability, honesty, free-spirit and fun! and a lot of adults don't have those that's why they're all wrinkled, grumpy and old! haha.
anyyyyway, i only have two wishes this year. one, GOOD HEALTH, not only for me but also for my family. and two, HAPPINESS in all its shapes and sizes.
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